To my baby,
I am so sorry.
I am sorry I have to go back to work in 2 weeks, believe me it has been one of the hardest decisions I have ever made. I just love spending every second of my life with you; you are my favourite person in the whole entire world and I would never choose to be apart from you.
I am sorry I won’t be with you all the time anymore. There have been many days I have cried just at the thought of leaving your side and leaving you in the hands of someone else. I want to be the person who is there when you say your first ever word, watch you take your first steps on your own, watch your face when you eat something new you don’t like, help you crawl for the first time, listen to the new little sounds you make, help you learn new things, pick you up when you fall down, just everything.
I am sorry life isn’t always fair but I am doing this so we can have a good life together. I am doing this so you have new toys to play with, so you can have a special first birthday party, so you can learn how to swim with new friends, so you can have nutritious healthy foods, so we have a nice home to live in and I can provide for everything you need!
However I need you to know I am not just leaving you with anybody, I hated the idea of leaving you with a childminder and you not getting all of the attention and love you need. I hated the idea of leaving you in a nursery I just didn’t feel comfortable leaving you there. So, I found you the perfect Nanny. She loves you so very much. I trust her with my life to take care of you and all of your needs. I would never leave you with someone I didn’t really know so your Auntie Ellie is taking care of you!
But I am still sorry it’s not me. I will think of you every second I am gone because you are my baby, I love you so so so much I could pop! For the next 2 weeks we are doing something new every single day and we are going to have so much fun I have so much planned for us! We are meeting all your friends at soft that we met at baby massage, we are trying out some new baby groups/classes to find out which you love doing best and we are going to see every single family member you could possibly think of!
You have no idea how much I am going to miss your smiles and giggles every single day. This is the hardest thing I have ever had to do in my life, I feel so guilty but it’s something I have to do. I hope you understand
Love you forever and always bubba
Mummy
xxx